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y bother when no one bothers.. totally..

im stress ok.. yes.. i cried.. i cried in the bus.. i cried on my way home from school. i cried in the toilet.. i cried in front of my bestie.. de best of all is i cried lar.. obvious isnt it.. n crying so much didnt make any difference.. it doesnt change the fact dat im still stress out.. it doesnt change the fact that im practically SAD.. feeliong damn depressed with the environment around me.. well people may not notice.. people may not see the real me.. all the saw was nurul.. the bubbly girl.. the kecoh girl.. the girl who will definitely brightens ur day up with her antcis.. well people think again..

as im typing a tear drops down my chubby cheek.. i hate the fact that im feeling this way when in reality i shouldnt.. arh.. damn.. but fug lar.. do i think people actually cared.. i think i better think again.. do people actually listened?? i wonder.. blargh..

thank you so much bestie for being there yesterday comforting me.. i should have cried my heart out in front of u.. but i just couldnt bear to let u see me cry dat much.. im sorri.. n thx again..

today marks the day that im finally together with him for a month.. i dunno whether i should jump for joy n celebrate or just feel as if its anoder day.. pretend.. pretend.. hypocrisy surrounds me..

n fren.. u r physically dere.. i seriously didnt noe wad i did to u dat made u react dat way to me.. u noe wad bitch.. i feel like u treat me like a dirt.. i may b dere with u oways.. but u never give a single shit about me.. understand dat feeling.. ok fine.. i shouldnt ask too much from u.. u willing enuff to be my fren is oready more than enuff for me..

n shit.. i still dunno which course shall i choose for next year.. damn lar..


oh god.. please help me...

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