damn this mix feelings again.

sometimes i hate long bus rides. y? the simple fact that i'll be all alone for the whole long journey. when im all alone, i tend to reflect, think, reminisce... so when this happens, the thought of all the worst things that happened in life came into the mind. den again, water starts to appear at the corner of the eyes n causing tears to fall down the cheeks. u get all warm n teary n shitty.

mebbe its the time of the month. ya heck.

i just dun understand y i try so hard to cater to people needs but i dun get the very same treatment in the end. i dun understand y people come, go n come back dat easily. i dun understand how people can change so drastically and pretend nothing had happened. i dun understand how others can click n mingle around so well with people while i have so much difficulty retaining those frens i have. i dun understand y hypocrites do exists in life. i dun understand y people lie to please others. blablabla...


i miss being a bowenian laaaa.....
okok im having headaches. i need aspirin.




FUCK it. i am so not in the mood.