can i leave home rite now..

it relli cant go this way animore any longer.. seriously.. im stressed up n im not making it all up.. tell me if i should or i shouldnt feel this way..

firstly, i tot when sis come back home.. my work load will decrease.. but then.. hack lar.. she doesnt even give a fucking damn abt me..totally.. im practically veri pissed now.. every household chore i have to do.. tell me abt it..

-wash de dishes
-wash, hang, fold the clothes
-sweep the house
-cook (n my cooking suck)

practically wadever mothers do, im suppose to do them.. fuck rite... oh god i have sinned..

well, u tell me wad im suppose to do rite now.. when sis went to kinabalu, ive always hoped she would get back home early n safely so dat she could help me at home.. wadever it is, my hopes were just shit.. serious shit.. now, she gets back home to get back to her old self.. sitting infront of the comp or on the fone for hours.. i screamed to her like crazy but did she give a damn?? NO!! NEVER!!.. not even an initiative to say " let me help u".. all she could answer was " Noisy lar!! its not as if i use the comp/ fone regularly" hey.. of cos im the one hu is suppose to scold her.. mum is sick.. if she scream, all her stitches will open up.. i pity mum.. =(

im trying very hard to stay strong.. im forcing myself to not cry but true fact is im crying inside..

can i just run away from home?? away from all this shit.. cos i cant handle it any longer..

when i told my guy about de idea of running away.. all he could do was scold me.. well, scold me for all u can.. i dun bother.. its so hard to make people understand u.. all i need is someone to listen to all the shit im facing.. dats all.. i dun think is too much to ask for.. or isit?? arrgghh.. but obviously i wun run away from home.. cos if i do so, where could i go?? im not dumb orait.. its just an expression.. stress could make me do it..

aaarrghh!!!! just leave me alone lar..

haiz...

well her distorted mind needs some rest now..