i stopped crying

since im like feeling so effed up now, i'll make another post. afterall, this is my blog n i have the right to post as many stories as i want every single day, every single minute, every single second. diam ah. byk songeh lak.

firstly n foremost, i had to layan this feelings as well as that annoying little brat at home. n currently, im in no mood to walk over to the toilet to freshen up. thus, i'll just stay here.

i didnt have a great sleep though. i was thinking. i was crying. and why on earth right? damn.

so i was thinking about why things like this always have to happen to me. mebbe its because i have to pay my debt for not wanting to go back to someone who really really did love me and still is expecting me back. or mebbe because i have been a very bad girl for all these years. or mebbe because i was being too much of an egoistic freak and not let my heart decide n control.

above all, i have no idea wads the reason behind all this shit.

practically, i want to chill with my girlfrens (and mebbe with afal too), drinking frappes and letting the heart out in maccafe of cos. or even with my penyamuns having so much fun teasing each other while camwhoring. but i cant. too badly i cant.

i need this stupid one week of september school holidays to end. immediately. ah malas la nak bbl lagi. bodoh peh feeling mcm siak je. bye la!

*mebbe im not meant to fall in love. mebbe not too soon. just mebbe. told u i was never good at it anyway.