letting it all out

this post may lead no one nowhere cos i just needed the space to express myself as i am feeling very fucked up. seriously.

little did i know that your absence made such an impact in my life. little did i know that all my memories that i wish could disappear this instant, will be the only things that i can treasure for the rest of mylife. little did i know that your presence all this while was just to test my deepest and innermost self to its limits. little did i know that all of these has come to an end and all could do is to move to the next chapter instead of still sticking around in chapter one hoping for a little miracle to happen. maybe i was just thinking to much into this matter that has long left this stoned-heart of mine.

crying has totally help me quite a bit. talking the most dearest person in my life has also lighten up my feelings more. basically, the more i think, the painful it gets. cause im the kind of person who likes to bottle up my feelings. truthfully, i can think of 1001 things that could revolve around one simple matter that affect me. yes, thats who i am. so you can preyty much guess that i am a person who thinks too much into a small problem, that will eventually lead to a big one then to a bigger one before stopping at the biggest point.

aku diam doesn't mean aku alright

i think im going to continue crying again. gdnite world & happy birthday farid.