There's too much saddness in this world

utterly disappointed in myself. these bad feelings im getting is really making me feel all uneasy. i am no longer aware of what i am doing. seriously, i want to cry. i don't know what else to do. the heart feels so fucking heavy that i don't know whether i can afford to carry it any further. i feel so useless. i have no idea whether what i actually did was the best decision i can make. i have no fucking idea. haiz.

the unplanned seremban trip last friday till sunday was whatever la eh. halfway throughout the journey i got to know that the main purpose there was to see the ghost exhibition. don't ask me how it was because i didn't see it. not interested to know more. just knowing they exist is enough for me. i don't wish to elaborate further here la eh.

is it because of the lies i made or that i am lacking self confidence that is causing me to carry this ultimately heavy heart? how long more need i carry it? until everything finally ends?

those who know what's this all about, take it that its just between all of us. i don't need more to know about how bloody stupid i can get pertaining to this. damn.

this time round, even DBSK cant cheer me up. double damn.



Things don't always happen the way you want them to
-DBSK (free your mind)