because to me its worth a thousand tears

alright. if i'm not gonna say this, you'll diss me till the end of time. so here i am, posting this cause you're a year older today. that makes you nineteen. happy birthday to you! as the saying goes, the older you are, the wiser you get, i hope you'll have a great year ahead & may you always be in good health.


ok thats done. ica's are all around the corner and i am feeling so anxious and worried. its so scary. i have never felt this afraid for the past 2 years in school. maybe its because its the last year of school and i cant afford to flung even one ica. every ica plays a major part in my GPA which currently isnt something i can be proud of. i need to concentrate. i need to focus. i must! really must!


& because of all that, i had to move myself away from my social life a little bit. just for now. i need this little time to do well in school. to prove to myself that i am a bright student that can excel. to be confident enough that i just need this little time to improve and get myself up again on my two feet. thus i apologise to whoever thinks that i am avoiding and not making time. though, sometimes i think i do not even have time for myself let alone for others, now.


with that i also want to apologise if by any chance my actions and words/tone during speaking seem a little cold and unfriendly. i promise that my coldness wont be long. maybe till graduation. if i cant graduate at the end of this year, i am not going to forgive myself. seriously. ive been taking everything for granted eversince first year. ive been skipping lectures. not doing tutorials and whatevernots. but, this year will be different. its almost been a month of school and i have been doing my tutorials and only skipped a lecture once because of some valid reasons that i will not notify here.


if this goes well, i will have to treat myself with something that worth treating. & if this post doesnt wake me up, i deserve a tight slap. okthanks&bye cause i need this time to study. (: