woo hoo...

hmmm... wad shall i tok abt todae... well, too bad i got no inspiration oready... my mind is dead lar... haha... why aint my nerves doing its job... hmph.. i wonder...

yesterdae, naz suddenly ask me to give a miss cal... yah... i missed her a lot... havent seen her for quite some time... 5 daes to be precise... haiz... aniwaez, we got too much to talk abt thus she called me...

the first news i heard from her was HE contacted her.... i tot for wad... mebbe ask for my well being or something of dat sort... but den got to noe dat he asked naz whether by any chance she knew a gerl in nursing by the name of hidayah... known to wear tudung n behave like a minah... hmm... i wonder... his new girlfren to be mebbe... its nice to noe dat hes over it... but i dun think i am... im suffering... stop haunting me...

deres this dream dat i think should be called a nightmare... his nephew added me in frenster.. i accepted his frens request since i noe him... but its darn shocking to receive a msg full of vulgarities from him... he cursed me like hell n it made it so shocked dat i cried i my sleep... haiz... wads gonna happen now..

aniwaez... wad happened todae was totally surprising... in the morning received a morning msg by WAN... how so not him to sent me a morning msg after so long we didnt contact each other... den i asked him whether deres somthing wrong with him since he msged me... he said he had a verii bad dream abt me... oh my god... of all the thing is dream abt me... why me?? haiz.... haiyoh... hopefully the dream wouldnt come true...dats crapshit lar...

why am i the kind of fren who someone needs when they are feeling down or depressed.... whenever they are happily leading their normal life, no one cares... fcuk lar... might as well no need to be ur fren... sharks man... haiz...

life sharks to the max lar... i dunno how to go on anymore... sometimes i just feel like breaking down while other times i feel like screaming my heads off... lifes seems meaningless... AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!! someone help!! i need someone to pull me out of dis mess... i may look bubbly n cheerful on the outside but in the inside i feel like strangling anyone who comes near me... sharks...

i shldnt be thinking dat way... my frens keep telling me to stay n think positive.. how!!!!??? i cant even think rite now... my minds dead... its buried in a blank brain...

im blank blank blank.... argh!!! kil me someone.... sharks....

im feeling EXTREMELY depressed n vexed... sharks... i so need a bath tub full of ice... better of dying numbed...