just forget abt it.

like wth is happening to this world of mine? ive been so down, really down lately. even a small matter can affect me drastically.



i really do not hate the idea of tutoring, but then the sight of some people sickens me till i feel like i should just cast an invisibility spell upon myself.



so what do u actually expect when u become a tutor? most would probably say respect, fun and being in conrol.



but to me i dun get what i expected. 2 years of tutoring, nothings change, and never a single day i stop regretting. i regret that i had accepted the job. i regret that i think too much about money. i regret that i could not quit the job because i care too much. i regret that i care too much that i dun get any recpect at all in return. i regret sharing my problems to people im not close to and get sabotaged in the end. i regret that i cant take charge of my own self. i regret for not being able to be firm enough. i regret that i could not motivate others like how others motivates me. i regret that i could not be the best tutor anyone wanted to have. i regret for regretting too much that it becomes so painful to stop thinking about it.



how i wish to embrace u this very moment. i think its no use if i cry and start thinking about u but in the end i could not stop myself from crying.