unimportant

this post is just an awakening message from me thats all. and nothing more. just telling everyone that im very much alive. physically wise i agree but emotionally wise u figure it out urself.

raya outing on sunday was a so-so for me. my mood was tearing me apart and i almost felt like backing out. i dun wish to offend anyone though but if u were in my shoes, u'll understand. argh! i dun wanna brood la. the more i talk about this, the more i hurt those ppl involve. i apologise for this sudden expression of selfishness. i'll stop.

ive tried so hard to remain positive. but it seems that the emotional and sensitive side of me is winning. its not as if im letting it win or anything of that sort. just that i feel like im losing a battle with my inner self trying to create an identity. trying to feel belonged. sadly i failed. i let myself down.

errm u may ask why a sudden change of skin, frankly, the layout doesnt even suit my current situation. i chose it out of random and i find it rather nice. so thank you to the creator, whoever u are. my sincere credits. meanwhile, im working on a new layout. so be patient.

i'll end this post now cos im far too sadden with my life right now. too many humans are getting on my nerves and i need a shoulder to cry on. well, the emo side speaks for itself. and u can say that again, u irritating piece of crabmeat. bye!


p.s: why do u make me hate you so much?