& i embrace this silence

ok, so what if yesterday was Vday. so what if i didn't have a date? so what if everyone else is feeling all lovey dovey and i am stuck with tutoring? so what if i got home freaking late just because i was working and not out on a date? so what if i didn't get any presents? so what? you've got a problem with that? why do every single individual love to find some fault in me. like helo! i am a human. i am not perfect. i have flaws too. i make mistakes too. i am like you. dumbass. sheeesh.

lets just move one la. can someone please enlighten me? can pictures from your computer be transferred into your camera (memory card)? ok, whos camera can't? i seriously need to know. the only thing i know is that my camera can do that. what about yours?

ok fine, you might be clueless about what i am trying to imply. let me relate this to you. some irritating computer/any-electronic-devices idiot asked for my help to transfer his/her photos into the computer and then separate those photos by dates and transfer them again into a separate CD. through the process of doing all that, all i heard was him/her saying "delete! delete! delete!". hey what do you expect i was half asleep and dead tired. time check was 11pm. but actually what he/she meant was to delete the photos from the computer after transfering them to the CD. but dear me deleted all photos in the computer as well as the camera. ape lagi, member bingit arh. but still, i maintain composure ah eventhough i know i made a mistake.

but seriously, someone enlighten me please. can i not transfer those photos back from the CD to the camera? can't i? because i tried/ made several attempts and still failed to do so. aku admit aku salah and aku memang confident leh transfer balik. so is the camera faulty/memang tak berguna or am i just trying to be smart here? sheeesh.

then terus emo sial balik rumah cause many things were running through my mind. mainly about why people do this/that, the treatments i get, the things i do and whatevernots la. if i were to continue rambling about all this, this post will be a damn long one with 1001 vulgarities. all because...... you guessed it, im feeling all the moodswings back. come to think of it, because of all these moodswings my tear glands got worst. they seem to be very full most of the time and thus tears start to fall like nobody's effing business.


today:
so much for forcing myself to wear a bright blue coloured top and still feel all fucked up. i should have just stick to black this entire week. ):



this time, please just one more miracle