I don't know, why i hate this moment.

heavy heart, empty stomach, cold fingers, numb toes. i am not feeling good at all. this feeling of helplessness and lost is really getting me on my wits. its as though i feel like im going to black out any moment. right, any moment. not a great feeling at all. why can't i see the brighter side of it? i am seriously feeling ultra paranoid. i dont want to get cheated again. once is enough. if this gets bad, unfortunately, sooner or later i have to admit. admit my mistake. admit the fact that i am bloody dumb to be controlled by others. not being able to make my own decision. i just followed blindly without even caring the consequences. i regretted. really regretted. i don't know what else to do now.

this random post serves no purpose. its just a wake up call for me. i need to let this bad vibes out or else im gonna breakdown anytime now. this is a reminder, telling me to start getting up on my two feet. to be independent. think before i start doing things. think about the pros and cons. not to just jump to conclusions. next time, no more. this is gonna be the end. i shall start learning the power of the word "NO!". and thats final.


main point: i need major backup, help me please.




No one can take it.
There are no tears to shed.
I can't take the pain that is penetrating deeply through my bones.
-DBSK (tri-angle)