yawn..

the loneliness- babyface .

i suddenly got this freaking urge to blog. wth. its like dawn n im still awake.. crap..i just cant bring myself to lala land.. i can sleep.. haiz... wads wrong wif me. i noe its not de best idea to be very straightforward.. but wtf.. i just blurt it out.. shit..im well known with my frigging hints n all.. but wad happen to all those hints... who has been telling me to be more straightforward in delivering my msg to anyone.. haiz.. well its not wrong trying not to beat ard de bush rite.. heck.. im acting weird recently.. everyone says so.. even i notice it.. crapshit..wad de heck is wrong with me.. i dun even noe.. im confusedd n lost.. wth.. does anyone even care.. why do i even bother to blog aniway.. the people whom are entittled to read wads posted for dem dun even take a glimpse of de entries..

im such a nuisance.. im talkative, loud, irritating n wadever other adjectives u can think off.. i cant seem to keep my freaking mouth shut.. but den im willing to change dat bad habit of mine.. now its de new nurul.. i will talk only when its necessary cos when i talk no one listens.. every single being ard me only desire a listening ear... n dats wad im gonna give to dem.. hah.. den dun u bother telling me how come u arent talking no more, wheres de old nurul gone to.. well i have de most perfect answer to de question.. de old nurul is gone.. get that in ur head..

im perfectly normal.. its just dat life has really taught me a lot.. i really may sound totally retarded abt wadever ive mention above.. im just crapping.. and now every event dat revolves ard me starts to make sense.. god tests everyones patience.. its up to us to learn to cope with wadever dat comes in our way in a rational n sensible way.. we shouldnt run away from problems instead we have to face dem.. cos every problem has its underlying meaning in it.. its up to de individual to understand it.. hah.. so now ive done some reflections.. lets get down to de mini details of wad happened for the past two daes..

well on thursday.. me, my sisters n azimah went to compass.. wad else shld we do except to eat n visit delibrary.. hah.. after a few hours dere.. mum called n asked both my sisters to sleepover at grannys house since my aunt gotta werk.. n i had to go n teach de primary n secondary sch stoodens.. oh man.. its tiring n stressful ok.. imagine having a secondary school student who doesnt listen to u even when u speak nicely to him.. dats wad happen.. instead this student can bargain telling me dat i do this qn only ok cher.. fcuk.. if it wasnt for dat womans call i wouldnt have to teach de primary six ok.. anyway she told me dat i only have to teach de p6 once during the sept holS..but den it became 2 daes ok.. she think i have nth better to do huh.. sharks.. im gonna die of extreme exposure of work.. after tuition mum forced me to sleepover at grannys house too.. crap.. after a long thought of being alone without sisters around.. den this happen.. tough luck man .. so yah.. i stayed at grannys house on thursday nite..

den on friday.. woke up at 10 plus.. cant force myself to sleep much longer.. haiz.. ate prata for breakfast..youngest sis fell sick.. hah.. still freaking energetic.. wth.. im like totally bored dere.. n wad luck.. de vcd playerwasnt functioning.. shit.. so i had to stick to watching de tv.. haiz...
ard 5 dad sent me n sisters home cos i gotta rush to have dinner with my frens.. haa.. well de dinner was ok..i meant dat nth disasterous happened except de miscommunication part though abt bedok corner n simpang bedok... we wasted our time waiting for the freaking bus no 10 n it came 45 mins later.. crap.. everyone came except those who beforehand told us they couldnt make it of cos.. ustazahs son was so cute.. haha.. n stupid me didnt take a picture of him.. lols.. haha.. nvm.. mebbe some other time.. hmm.. the dinner ended at 11 plus bcos of allde delay.. haha.. but nvm.. its not always we have a get together session..lols.. n i reached home at 12 plus..actually i didnt feellike going home.. n i didnt know wads my reason.. mebbe im tired of sitting at home..

ooppsss nearly forgotten... happy birthday to hazwan on 0909.. may ur wishes come true..

haha.. well its late oready n i need to catch some sleep.. so yah.. i off now..