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mebbe all shits that happen are fated afterall. who noes when u get all lucky or when u get all unfortunate.

mebbe thats why people say life is unfair.

dear eemah, im not ranting about sorrows, unhappiness and sadness here. im just ranting about my deepest thoughts hoping that it will leave this mind and not pollute if further.

ive thought about the saying " don't judge the book by its cover" and i find it to be very true especially in our daily life.

now i noe how important first impression is. never express ur love to someone you only got to know without even seeing that person cos u may like their personality but may never like wad u see when u meet up eventually.

when theat happens, you'll regret and acts coldly towards the other person hoping the other person will not expect more from u. leaving the other person in confusion, denial, hatred and pain.

i so hate it when it happen that way.



so, i made dad upset yesterday. i am sorry. i shouldn't have said all that. i just couldnt help it when i get compared to ther rest. i may not be the best daughter but i have tried my very best to be one. i gave my all to get the slightest attention. but all of it just went down the drain. mebbe i wasnt good enough. so much for not being a demanding kid, so much for trying to please every single member in the house. no one ever appreciates.

mebbe ive been a little too harsh for being too overly sensitive over a small issue. but dad, it doesnt happen once. in fact a few times. ive kept it deep within hoping that all these negative feelings could leave. but it didnt, in turn it accumulates and become hurtful to keep it to myself.





Oh God, i badly want to be a young kid again. so that i wont have to worry about all this shits happening over and over again.



im not feelin good. positive.