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woke up ard 10 todae.. was helping mum doing the household chores for a while.. hee.. im a good gerl ok.. yesterdae wasnt a good dae, as written in the previous entries.. too many things happen at one time.. wanted to cry.. just couldnt.. mebbe if i force my tears out, it would be bloody.. hmm.. who noes.. mebbe i should try later.. ahah.. so wad am i feeling now.. im feeling like wad the weather's feeling.. practically its raining n its preeti cold.. but i like.. the environment suits the emotion.. so dats good.

thx to azi for listenin to my lame rants last nite.. thx for being there.. its nice of u to say dat whenever i need anione, i can just give u a msg even if its early in the morning.. im touched.. seriously.. but im not dat rude to be msging people early in the morning la gerl.. hee.. ok lar.. kalau aku dilanda masalah, aku carik kau dulu arh.. orait?? hee..

last nite slept at one plus i think.. cos i cant sleep.. so in the end stayed up to watch BEETLEJUICE.. hee.. farny n hilarious..

been thinking.. still thinking.. hmmm.. xbf msged.. previously he said he wanted to start a fresh.. [ wadever relli, cos i dun even understand wad he meant aniwaes].. said its not dat he doesnt want to be wif me.. its just dat hes not ready.. well, hu told him im ready.. im never ready.. being in a relationship requires lotsa commitment.. n he still hasnt noe dat im afraid of IT.. tsk tsk.. wadever.. even if he tells me hes gonna widen his social circle n get to noe more gerls to find out which one suits his criteria better.. he can jolly well, go ahead.. i dun bother.. all i can do its just pray for him n hope he will find his true love.. if deres such a thing call true love ..

truthfully, im the one who needs to widen my social circle.. im almost living in a dead city.. its as if no one cared.. but people do care.. im de one who doesnt see it.. look! the problem does lies in me.. people who relli understand will never say dat they understood, instead they will help in any way they can.. seriously.. cos people who said the understood are merely people who pretend to care for u.. believe me..

well, enuff of me talking to my conscience.. my seven-year-old sis been a pain the ass.. its onli 1230 n shes been complaining dat shes hungry.. well i dun blame her.. who asked her to onli eat a bread with nuttella with milo for sahur.. its her fault wad.. so stop pestering mum n complainin..

haiz.. schools starting in 9 daes time.. im not ready for school.. im not ready for new modules.. haiz...

these daes my emotions are relli overpowering my soul.. im just makin full use of my time doing nothing..

one last thing, pleasedunbeapainindeass.. tara..