RANDOMISMONITY!!! -i laps atiq-

i m bloggin from atiq's 'clean' room. we've been eating junk like nobody's business. chocolate wrappers are all over the place. now im addicted to julie's butter waffles. actually, im here to HELP atiq wif her portfolio. but we've been slacking more than doing dat portfolio. haha!

ive uploaded some photos taken by my new hp. so yah.

taken last saturday at the esplanade.


me n her la.


LEMremCHOP

this is taken at TP.


Afal n eemah. (k both of u re featured here.)


Lastly, my very ugly shoes done by myself.


-a picture speaks A thousand words la-

im in ur heart

oh well. yesterday's stats paper was total crap too. i cant do most of it. shit k fine i wun brood over it la.

since atiQ send me a song from amber pacific like weeks back. i fell in love with it. haha. here goes.

Gone So Young

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight...

Tonight...

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...
I'm in your heart tonight

I love it.

k best all exams done. now i have like 2 months holiday. so wad am i suppose to do. damn it. goooosh!

wadever la eh.

ripped

basically yesterday's marketing paper was fairly answerable. hehe. im happy. :)

met mum n dad to go johor. dad wanted to have cheap haircut. mum wanted to send some pants 4 tailoring. plus mum decided to do facial treatment 4 me n herself. haha. im happy again. :)

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oh well. deres this one scenario about 3 person. a friend(girl), de boifren n de girlfren.

so boifren n girlfren was walking to meet friend who is boifren's friend. when they met friend, everything went preeti well. girlfren was over de phone. so boifren talked to friend.

when girlfren turned, friend asked boifren 4 a hug. girlfren became stunned n angry. boifren refuse to hug n look blankly at girlfren. den friend dared boifren 4 a hug again. boifren still refuse.

girlfren decided to look away. when girlfren n boifren separated from friend. boifren remain calm n pretended nothing had happened. so girlfren bacame so pissed dat girlfren decided not to talk to boifren all de way home.

haha. terkekek kan dengar cerita ni. LOLS. its like too funny to even imagine.

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ok people, today is my last paper. im SUPER de SUPER glad its gonna b over soon. so whoever wants to go out with me, fix a date orait. haha. i wanna make myself busy dat i will never ever think about a loss ive made recently. :)

-dat love was deep but de heart had been ripped.-

at random

yesterday's n today's paper was total crap. haiyy. i dunno whether i can make it. gah!

oh well, now im hook to anoder song by ratu. hehe.

teman tapi mesra

aku punya teman
teman sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku

dia amat manis
juga baik hati
dia selalu ada
waktu untuk membantuku

namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan
tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

reff: cukuplah saja berteman denganku
janganlah kau meminta lebih
ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra

aku memang suka pada dirimu
namun aku ada yg punya
lebih baik kita berteman
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra

aku punya teman
teman sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku

namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan
tuk ingin jadi kekasihku


well the lyrics has got nth to do with my life. duh! bongs btl. k la. i should study for marketing paper tmr. toodles.

takkan ada cinta yang lain

im hook to the song as written as my title 4 todays post. especially de siti nurhaliza's version. thx rahimah. Gosh! im so emo now. well, here goes.

Haruskah ku ulangi lagi
Kata cintaku padamu
Yakinkan dirimu
Masihkah terlintas didada
Keraguanmu itu
Susahkan hatimu

Tak akan ada cinta yang lain
Pastikan cintaku hanya untukmu
Pernahkah terbersit olehmu
Akupun takut kehilangan... Dirimu

Ingatkah satu bait kenangan
Cerita cinta kita Tak mungkin terlupa
Buang semua angan mulukmu itu
Percaya takdir kita Aku cinta padamu

Akankah nanti
Terulang lagi
Jalinan cinta semu
Dengar bisikku
Bukalah mata hatimu...

actually its from dewa. but i still like siti's version. ((=

frankly, im not feeling good the whole day. yesterday too. hmmm.

from monday to wednesday, ive been mugging at TP with my TP frens. went to the gym on wednesday. yessa! a few calories burnt.

i didnt eat much today. no appetite. bleargh.. i shall start eating healthy now.

to u. im sori it had to happen dat way. i noe ure hurt n sad about my decision. but ive been thru alot since the starting. thus i think its the best way.

k fine. now im crying. SHIT

WOOTS

basically. im happy. hehe.

Yesterday was GREAT i relli mean it. went out with the family. mum bought me a silver bracelet. n dad bought me a new hp. nokia 6111. so long old hp. HAHAHA.

Saturday was awesome too. cos after "madrasah", me, my LEMnREM partners n along with a new fren decided to have dinner at parkway. den me n my LEMnREM partners chilled at mcCAFE till 10. GEEZ.

Friday was cool. me n my boifren went to LIDO to watch fearless. we den loiter ard town. we saw his frens like all over the place, everwhere la. hmph.

today will be a fine day. i hope. gonna study like mad. n make sure wadever i study makes sense n stay in my head till exams r over. fuh! this will b tough.

oh well, i shall go n bathe n get ready now.

cranky + moody = bleargh

yesterday isnt exactly a good day.

morning class went on as usual. finished at 12.30.

at 2, met eemah n her group of frens at TM. den we proceed to downtown to eat n play bowling. ok bowling was very fun. we played a game due to time contraint. well, at 630 i had to go. where else rite?

i purposely took my time to reach dere. HA HA. haiyy. den again, i duno y i felt so freaking moody to teach SEC1 n PRI2 with anoder P5 n SEC2 student. hish. it was like hell can. me with my nearly-lost voice was practically screaming my lungs out dat nite. haish.

i was totally stressed up dat i scolded n screamed at every single person eventho dat person didnt do anything wrong. haiyy.

back home, mum was reprimanding me about god-noes-wad.

well i had enuf for that day la.

today, marks the start of study week. i shall start mugging. someone please push me so hard so dat i can start asap.

oh well, am fasting today thus i think i shant b going out den.

(this part is typed out of boredom n emptiness much much later)
so at 3 plus. dat lady called. i tot she was gonna tell me dat deres no tuition for the day. haiyy. well, dere is no tuition for de dae BUT i still have to go to her place. all because she needs my help for her sons project. haiyy. patheticos btl.

firstly, god knows wad project it is. all i noe is its about singapore's snow city. ok fine. when i reached dere, she asked me to proceed to her sons room. n dere i saw he n his frens. deres 3 of dem so i assume dat its group work. SO Y DOES SHE NEED ME DERE RITE?? hmmm. they did their project halfway thru. n she asked me to draw some craps dere. ok sure. the most pissing thing dat happened was dat i m de only person doing the work. like wth? while i was drawing, he was BUSY playing some online game with his frens. i repeat again PLAYING ONLINE GAME while i was drawing. how rude n irritating was dat? hish. since i was pissed, i draw quickly n left everything dere 4 dem to colour n touch up. like i care about their project. hmph!

n ya, dere wasnt even a thank you from anyone. argh! i dun bother la.

anoder irritating thing was dat mum n dad came back late n i had to cook to break my fast. GOSH! i tot i could have packed food for breaking fast. mebbe my favourite kway teow goreng or something. but no. i had to cook fried rice which i sucked at. it taste horrible but i had to swallow it tho. i was too darn hungry.

great. i m oready very very pissed by now. n my irritating voice box just had to make it worst. i m now having difficulty talking. it suck ok.

i want tommorrow to b a better day, can?

WEETS

orait today is a good day. after for so long. haha. mebbe its becos of the short hours spent in skool tho.

i came late to class which was suppose to start at 2. oh well, i was only 15 mins late. came to class only for statistics ica2 results. haiyy. it wasnt good. very very bad. ive flung it. argh! wadever. marketing tutorial was draggy as always. we've went thru one tutorial plus anoder one revision tutorial. too mush marketing for the day. accounting lecture was cool. cos we were practically slacking cos the teacher was only going thru merely 3 questions for revision.

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monday was as per normal. me n my frens actually decided to not sit 4 the microeconomics revision lecture n halfway went out to eat breakfast at macdonalds. haha. SLACKOS. my powerpoint test during business software class was crap. i cant do most of it. haiyy. stats class was ok. n effective writing skills presentation went well. :)oh yes. a very happy 19th birthday to my fren, shima.

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at nite the whole family went causeway point. i bought those assessment books from popular n a present from mini toons. mum bought me a whole set of formal attire- black blazer n pants. :) it was good. thx mum.


I will slack with eemah tmr. :) yessa!

im done!

k best. ive done my EWS ICA2. i just love this feeling.

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after doing project. met eemah n afal at TM. i wanted to de-stress myself. thus, eemah decided to watch a movie. haha. fun with dick n jane. it was funny. :)oh yes, to both of u thx 4 the super combo ok.

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mum asked me to follow the family to the market plus to have our brunch at GEYLANG. so about 11 plus we went dere n came back home at 1 plus. i had to get ready for religious class by 130 n had to meet atiq. atiq's parents brought us to the place at masjid kassim, wisma indah. k fine. its my first time dere. me n both my LEMnREM partners registered for the class n got into the class which started at 230. the class was small just like my old class. but the different thing is dat we can wear home clothes n the people in the class r not all our age. some r much much older. hmm. oh well, class is from 230 to 6. so after class i met my family at toa payoh central. mum bought me a bracelet from citigems. hee. preeti! den we went compass to eat n survey on hp. we went home at 10 plus.


i need to go out later la. haiyy. buy assesment books for my sec1 students. buy a black blazer n office pants for myself. buy my fren a birthday present.

wadever it is. i need food now. im starving la,can.


if ure asking about my feelings now. k i'll tell. im feeling confused, sad, happy n angry. haha. all dat mixed emotions just came into me again.

waD?

basically im right here stoning in de room at block B level 5 opposite room 12. blargh! im not feeling GOOD. i wonder y.

well, i was here since 11 just now. ya, for project again. n this will b de last cos all these projects r due this coming monday. WEE~ i cant wait.

in addition, im still sick. sore throat, running nose, flam n headaches r just torturing me. damn dem.

as today isnt a good day, yesterday wasnt either.

skool started at 8 as per normal. its more slacking in class now cos we have covered all the topics which r gonna b tested during exams later. skool ended pretty early. like an hour early. cos the tutorial was a short one.

i went back home straight to rest for an hour or 2. at 6 plus, i was practically dragging my feet to tuition. haiyy.

tuition was NOT great as always. but yesterday was a whole different scenario. i came n the students were all dere busy doing their werk. P6 doing their math testpaper n P3 doing his math revision book. k fine since i dun have to go thru all the trouble to think of wad to give dem. she was sitting dere with these students. k fine again. i was standing. k fine again again. (by now i was piss)

she was marking every question done by the students. when the students answered wrongly or didnt noe how to do dem, " later, u ask teacher nurul explain so just circle the question" she said. im like, "??!!?? (with a fake smile)"

wadever it is. teaching P6 n P3 always pisses me off. Y?? all bcos she will drag the duration of the tuition to more than 2 hours. you tell me who teaches tuition more than 2 hours??!!? like for example from 600pm all the way to almost 845pm. like WTF rite.. hish.

on the other hand teaching, sec1 n P2 aint dat stressful. but then deres this once when i started tution at about 730 n ended at about 915. she was screaming at me asking me why i had to release dem early. (this refers to my sec1) like as if they dun have homeworks to do. like as if they are schooling in the afternoon. aniways, ive been thru secondary school. it is not similar to the old times. now timetable could stretch from 730am to 2pm. not mentioning, the CCAs which will end like abt 5 plus or so. i mean which human being would stand such long days right. for god's sake they r only 13. they need their rest n play too right. hish.

like yesterday, my sec1 was suppose to start at 730pm. but one of my student came at 8 n he panting. he told me he just came back from CCA. i pity him alot.

oh well. anyway, i'll b meetin eemah later. i shall chilled n slack for all i care. im too stressed up now.

seriously, when u relli needed someone to talk to. dat someone just couldnt be dere. thus i conclude dat my special someone had to b my precious dearest blog. :D

so dere u go. ive just ended my confessions for the day.

darny..

yesterdae was SHIT except for the fact dat i hang out in atiq's room la. ok fine. i did went out yesterday but for a little while. i was so bored of sitting at home n playing online pool dat i had to get my bhutt out of the house. since atiq invited me over, i went. i was only dere for merely 2 hours. cos pathetically i had to go somewhere else which i totally dread.

so at 630 i went for tuition. and as per normal it is a place i hate most. ok fine, i was half an hour late. cos i deliberately did dat. i was practically dragging my feet all de way dere. (orait, enuf exaggerating here.)

students (2 pri6 n 1 pri3 ) were waiting for me at the round table. den i sat, thinking on wad to start teaching at dat time. i started with my pri3 student by giving him exercises from his english assesment books. suddenly, her SOn came down the stairs saying " u wanna see the baby?" haiyy.. i said ok n went up.

after a while, i came down again wanting to start on my P6 students. i asked dem to do a synthesis exercise bcos i dun want dat lady to come down n make den stop half way just to continue doing other things. and my hypothesis was right.

minutes later she came down n de conversation goes.

HER: hey, wad r u giving dem?
ME: arrh? exercise.
HER: have u guys finished the math paper previously? ( directed to the 2 students)
ME: ......
HER: nurul, let them finish the math paper.
ME: ok.

den her SON came to the table n sat down. ok fine. its for her son's BENEFIT again. WTF!@#@$!@%$#^#.. argh! isnt it much better if shes the one teaching rather than me.
rite? rite? deres no freedom of speeh dere. cos wadever it is shes always right. can?? dammit.

argh! my boifren's hp is being a bitch esp the charger. n now it will b much difficult for me to contact him. JUST MY LUCK!!^%*)#%#&$%&

Ok ive sinned enuf. GGGGGAAAUSSHHHH! when am i gonna start to repent.


I NEED MY PANADOL NOW!!

anoder effing boring day!

i dun think deres skool today. even if dere is, i wouldnt wanna go. all bcos i just recovered from my headaches.

on monday, the whole family went to airport to fetch my uncle who came back after performing hajj at abt 3 in the afternoon. we stayed at his house till night.

on tuesday, i woke up feeling nauseous n totally sick. i couldnt walk properly. had a bad day. my head felt as if it was gonna explode any sooner. blargh! so irritating. i vomitted wadever i ate. haiyy. stomach was empty plus head was killing me. i ate 2 panadols n den rest the whole day.

SEE!! 2 days were wasted just like dat. WTF!!#$#%%&%&%&$..

n i guess, today i will be staying at home like usual. cos no one is free to go out with me. hmmm.


i shall start being productive from now onwards. hah, like real. blargh!


someone please come to my rescue, can!?