Happy Holiday! :D

and thats how i spent my fantabolous tuesday. :D

Canadian Pizza, Polar Mousse Cake and the company of the family is enough to make me a happy girl. i am grateful.
thank you god.

alright thats aside. currently, im making myself busy with articles searching and loads of DBSK's love. heh. ive got hold of numerous music videos, loveletter's and Xman's episodes to keep me company as and when i can no longer use the connection.

after this, i will make myself busy with pictures searching to create a new layout for the new month. heh.
la la la.
happy happy.



From the start a person like you
Never existed to me the way I didnt to you
Remember one day, you'll hurt as much as i did
From someone other than myself
You'll experience the same pain

Footsteps - JaeJoong

Happy 19th dear me! (: (:

i think i have the sweetest family and friends on earth.
i feel blessed.
& i mean it.
amin

Thank You all for the well wishes, cards and presents.
Thank You all for remembering.


its raining today. & they say rain brings good luck. (:



ps: i really really have a very bad memory.
so those people whom i did not wish for their birthdays.
i am terribly sorry for that.
happy belated to whoever's birthday that i missed.


to tell you the truth, well wishes and recognition (plus mr green) is enough to make me happy.
getting presents is a bonus. boy, am i elated right now. (: (:

happy happy kid

i think my mother just gave me an early birthday present. two of it to be precise.

1) The External Hard disk.
2) A new Battery fot the Laptop.

HOOORAY!
how can i not be happy about that, right?
those are the things that i badly wanted this year.


The family had been planning something big for my birthday this year or so they claim and i am still wondering what on earth are they planning about. i just hope its not another powerpoint slide from my little sister again. hah!


now, i want a hoola hoop, an ipod video and a whole year supply of chocolates. preety please!




ok im done blogging for the day. (:

if i could

blogging has become a habit.

as i was browsing through my friendster account, i realised how much i have missed out from the world. its as though i just came out of a trapped and enclosed space, that i do not have any idea of what had happened around me. there were too many updates to touch on. many of those on them boys who were previously after me, already having a love life of their own; happily being with their current girlfriends. those friends that i seriously don't talk to anymore breaking up with their old gf/bf's and getting new ones. those people whom i was close to years back but we drifted apart so much that now we're as a matter of fact treating each other like strangers.

so much have changed over the years. no, im not complaining. in fact, im happy. if there aren't any changes, the world will absolutely be a boring place to live in. but is change really a good thing in the first place other than making the world a less boring place to live in? hmm, i have no answer to that. i just hope that people don't just drift & when one day they see me walking down the street, just pass by without any recognition of me whatsoever. it saddens me so much when whenever i really make good relatons with someone be it a guy or a girl, i'll lose them in the end. i faced this kind of problems quite a number of times that i lost count. hah!

alright, i have rambled too much on those little things that are seriously not pertinent in my life for now. what's more important is that i nfinish up my report and my other tutorials by the end of the day. in which i think would be impossible if i were to continue at this rate.

i have so many thoughts in my head right now that i feel likes its going to explode.


ok bye!

It’s alright even if you don’t say anything until the end.

outcast. alone. solitude. detached.

the basic feeling i have right now.
the kind of feeling that i want to separate myself from badly.
the way, i don't like to live with.

sadly, it has to stay put. gah!


aish!
i am so lazy right now that i do not have the mood to study for tomorrow's global supply chain management test. i am so bored right now that i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs without any care. i am so annoyed right now that i might just cut my hair shorter as soon as i can get my hands on a pair of scissors. i am so pissed right now that i feel like locking myself up in my room till forever. i am so irritated right now that i might just starve myself because there's nothing to consume at home. i am so nonchalant right now that i might just call the student and cancel tuition for today. GREAT! my selfish self decides to invade.



nothing seems to satisfy me today.
everything seems so wrong.

i want to cry.


*Korean/Japanese/Chinese songs on repeat.
(just because i cant understand them, that they'll make me feel better)

because to me its worth a thousand tears

alright. if i'm not gonna say this, you'll diss me till the end of time. so here i am, posting this cause you're a year older today. that makes you nineteen. happy birthday to you! as the saying goes, the older you are, the wiser you get, i hope you'll have a great year ahead & may you always be in good health.


ok thats done. ica's are all around the corner and i am feeling so anxious and worried. its so scary. i have never felt this afraid for the past 2 years in school. maybe its because its the last year of school and i cant afford to flung even one ica. every ica plays a major part in my GPA which currently isnt something i can be proud of. i need to concentrate. i need to focus. i must! really must!


& because of all that, i had to move myself away from my social life a little bit. just for now. i need this little time to do well in school. to prove to myself that i am a bright student that can excel. to be confident enough that i just need this little time to improve and get myself up again on my two feet. thus i apologise to whoever thinks that i am avoiding and not making time. though, sometimes i think i do not even have time for myself let alone for others, now.


with that i also want to apologise if by any chance my actions and words/tone during speaking seem a little cold and unfriendly. i promise that my coldness wont be long. maybe till graduation. if i cant graduate at the end of this year, i am not going to forgive myself. seriously. ive been taking everything for granted eversince first year. ive been skipping lectures. not doing tutorials and whatevernots. but, this year will be different. its almost been a month of school and i have been doing my tutorials and only skipped a lecture once because of some valid reasons that i will not notify here.


if this goes well, i will have to treat myself with something that worth treating. & if this post doesnt wake me up, i deserve a tight slap. okthanks&bye cause i need this time to study. (:

make it simple.

now, the only person i can never understand is you. really. and i dont wish to understand you at all. its too complicated. complicated things give me headaches. and i dont want headaches caused by you. so just let me be. seriously, let me be. im fine now. just fine.




argh! its the eighteenth alr. aish!




ok off to accompany that little kid for a game of badminton.
urgh! baby sitting is annoying.

the littlest things;

firstly,


yes, ogy featuring you. ni la aje yg aku mampu. :) semoga bahagia!


alright thats done.
actually i have so much to rant about. random thoughts keep accumulating at the starting of the day. BUT! @#%@#%@#. they disappeared right after im done photoshopping ogy's pic. damn. i should have blogged first before photoshopping the photo. how dumb! aish.

o, i shall rant in numeric order since i am really really lazy to come up with a paragraph of crap. besides, i need to save my vocab and grammar for my business proposal ica that's due next friday. aish!


1) i am currently watching gokusen anime.
2) i have watched gokusen 1 and gokusen2. & will definitely purchase their dvd when i am rich.
3) i have watched death note 1 and death note 2. & will definitely purchase death note 2 soon.
4) i think i have listened to all TVXQ/TVFXQ/DBSK/DBSG/THSK. & im waiting for their latest single to be release anytime soon.
5) i have purchased and watched the king&the clown. & it is really disgusting.
6) i wish dad will change my laptop's battery as a birthday present.
7) i wish i can work more so that i can get more income to buy myself an external hard drive.
8) i wish i can do all my icas at ease and get good results in the end.
9) i wish i can remain this positive for as long as i can.
10) i wish that life isnt as complicated as it seems. i want it simple.



the rest, i forgot. aish! besides, i dont think my posts can get any longer than this. (:

annyeong! (: (: (:

MANSE!

like finally, i can give in to these urges. ive been wanting to blog since last week but the bloody servers keeps bugging me off. so i gave up. lucky today its not giving me problems anymore. so anyone missed me? i guess not, uh. howells, thats fine. seriously, its ok. today, i am feeling rather under the weather. its so cold and wet. but i love it. i love the rain. dont you? alright, what am i babbling about? at this rate, this post is going nowhere.

ok this time i'll be serious. all along, my days were just fine. held down by a typical timetable. busy with lectures, tutorials, projects, icas and tuition. nothing to be excited about. no, im not complaining. in fact, this is the first ever period of time, i am ultimately positive about school life. dont believe. ask a friend. i received an sms from a classmate: "you look happy lately." (this is a good evidence ah).




you called. after so long. guess what. i wasam happy. never been better. is there a difference, with/without you? these arent lies. you may not believe. you may think im hiding some things from you. dont worry, im feeling really good without the slightest regret. if you were to ask me that question months before, i'll still agree. now, after 3 whole months, and you ask me that exact same question again. this time, the answer will definitely be a change. trust me.




bianhe. sumimasen.
theres nothing more that i can say.

bleargh

today,
not exactly in one of the best of moods.



Can i go home now,
preety please.



i cant take this anymore.


damn.

a quickie

nothing much to update on.
lazy to create a new blog layout.
no mood for anything.

busy with school and tuition.


so in short, i am on hiatus. will only blog when i feel like it.

arigatogozaimasu. sayonara.