penyamuns back

this is like the countless number of times i went out with the LEM n the REM. haha.

the day was in a perfect cool temperature. cosy n nice enough for a lazy bum like me to be in bed wrapped in my finest n thickest sheets n layers of blanket. (ok too much exaggeration here.)

so the day was started off with a wake up call from a dear fren, asking me to accompany her to the old sec sch to get her ancient testimonial. haha. n yes before that i had to send lil kid to school as of any normal thursday mornings right.

after that, we all met iqah n az to have lunch at banquet compass point while waiting for all-time-super-de-duper easrly fren of ours, LEM to reach at there. we even had time to go to the library, test like almost every perfume available in metro n all the bags we can put our hands on.

and when LEM reached his destination n finally found us, we proceed to town. cos he needed to do a survey on some stuffs. and after that to suntec city. and lastly our final destination was marina square for an early dinner.

thus by the end of the day, our feet got too tired that we took the bus home. so a long journey back home for all three of us.

well, its been a while since we all went out together as a group. :)) [PEACE]

a very tiring day for me. but before im off to lala land, i need to pack up my stuffs for the KL trip on saturday cos i'll be staying over at iqah's place tmr nite. besides, mum, dad n that blister will be off to tanjung pinang for a holiday trip too.

other than that, i need to steal that digicam from that blister plus heal my aching arm. sheesh!

okok. i wont rant further. im beat! toodles. ttfn.



*aniwaes, all hopes on a fast recovery for u

walk with me

sha la la la


a great day yet again. the plan to roller blade was cancelled due to the heavy rain of elephants and ahmengs. shittoes mittoes. i was very slack the whole day. i was clad in my normal green top, jeans n the oh-so-slippery havaianas. :P

practically, EVERYTHING is being paid off. i didnt have to take out a single cent. n i felt bad about it. hmph! takpe takpe, when i become rich, my turn to blanje. yay!

firstly i was fetch from home. when we almost reach ECP, it rained. and so there wasnt any back up plan if the rollerblading plan tak menjadi. BUT, we managed to make a plan out afterall. firstly, to have lunch at macD. a filling one i had. then off to, E-zone for some games. after all the fun n laughter, we went to almost all shops in parkway parade. den mum called for a favour to buy a farewell present for a male colleague of hers. n we went all over the place just to look for a decent n nice present. but to no avail. n we took 36 to suntec city and we too didnt get to find anything dere. so i was brought to shaw towers like for the first time in my life. haha. n dere too we couldnt find anything. n we walked again to bugis junction. by then it was super dark n was raining damn heavily. we went thru most of the gift shops twice n settled on a very nice square-ish magnetic calendar. lawa G la can. ished. hehe.

so lastly i was sent to tuition again.





*ah lalalalala life is wonderful

merepek kerepek

i give up. as u can see my blog layout is not even nearly done. its not even wad i expected it to be. bleargh. i am vexed that i had to restart my laptop 5 times just to write this post cos the first four times, this laptop had to jam itself and not work. sheeesh. wth! ^*@%)#$^@^(@$. i cannot stand it anymore. n mebbe for now im blaming it on msn. cos everytime i open up an msn window, everything else went jam. shittos. i gave up. i should forget about that.

and some idiotic dogs around my estate keeps barking nonstop distrupting my concentration. damn!

OKAE! i think i should go freshen up with icy cold water n a tub of super cold chocolate ice cream just to calm myself down.

ttfn yall.

&this is how it feels

those mixed emotions that love to bug me is driving me nuts. and because of that i felt like blogging.

with all the jiwang and emo songs as my companion, i feel a little more calm n relaxed. great!

yes, i sent little kid for her indian dance in the morning. den i loiter around hougang not knowing wad to do. nyohohoho! i had planned to purchase a pair of coloured contacts plus buy a pair of earphones as well as a drawing block. afterall i had to do something at home, in order to not feel bored n all, right?



i noe could be loved but im not sure whether i can love. i dun think i can go thru the process anymore. for i noe, that deres no more LOVE in me. not for now. never.

*aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau rindu

last day

at last, todays the last day to repay my fast. i am one happy girl. :)
other than that, i have to send lil kid to school for her indian dance. i too decided to buy a pair or mebbe 2 pairs of contact lenses. cos my recent one is almost making me all teary. sheeeesh.

and im irritated by the stupid loud noise the construction worker been making like early in the morning. not a good way to wake up to. damn!

yesterdays wasnt exactly a happening day. i fast-ed. thus i sat at home doing nothing except finished the whole series of green forest my home. yes all 15 episodes. because of that, i fantasized n daydream. argh. nvm.

n for everyones info, yesterdays tuition was cancelled. i got angry while i was fasting. sheesh. buat hilang pahala puase je. just imagine la. i was practically running to that tuition place but got to noe no one was dere. so i tot i was early. but when i stepped in the house, she said that deres no tuition cos her SON will have mother tongue exam like the next day.

i was so effing frsutrated. ished.



ARGH! im not really in a good mood. i shall humour myself with cartoon. yessa. cartoon here i come.


ah bye la. nak mandi. :P

pasal kahwin.

i begin this post with my saturday. n i'll end it with some nonsense.

firstly a cousin of mine, beside my dad had her solemnisation at the ROM for muslims at fort canning area. n every member of the family was told to be dere by 1130 cos her timeslot to get married is at that time. so ya, everyone was waiting patiently to see the beautiful bride n groom to be reaching the place on time BUT the were effing late that i was almost swearing my heads off. n everyone got to know the reason bcos of her champion husband who reached at the mak andam's place like effing late. wtf! den his family members langsung tak ade initiative to call n ask where the pengantins were cos the pengantins were late n the tok kadi had finished his job time.

apart from that, my mak long called me over to say something. it was hilarious. she was pratically telling me to introduce myself to her youngest son, my cousin. she said shes afraid he doesnt recognise me when we accidentally bump into each other outside n starts asking for my number. haha. my aunt is so funny. but im still wondering y she had to do n say that in the first place. hmmmm??!!

on a lighter note mum n me was having an inside joke of our own. mum made a few conditions for my husband-to-be. hehe. this would be interesting to blog on. lalala!

1] he must win mum's heart
2] he must be a very on time person cos mum hates to wait
3] he must be able to support mum's daughter

and i duno wad else. hehe. my mum made me so scared alr. like how on earth am i gonna find a husband who can win her heart? ished. isnt it suppose to be winning my heart. hurhur. i dun want my marriage like to be like in mami jarum. huahuahua! wad was i merepeking.

da bis. wth is wrong with me blogging like rojak? ished. nvm. im off.

* deres a truth i your eyes saying u'll never leave me

for fun cos im bored

i was overwhelmed with romance n love for the whole morning n afternoon. all because i was hooked to this korean tv show posted in youtube called "green forest my home" and iqah brought her 3hr "eiffel im in love" dvd to watch at my place. thus from there i was daydreaming about all this love stories. in which i wouldnt want to publicise every detail of those heartlongings that i dreamt of. nyohohohohoho!

the band performance at the cathay's ben&jerry's was entertaining as usual. went out with iqah n az to plaza singapura to break my fast at long john silver. az was a kind soul as per normal so she bought me the 12.50 ice cream from ben&jerrys. all because i noe she loves me dat much. gee. i am so tak tau malu one.

so im left with 2 more days to pay back my fast. i cant wait to finish it all up. it looks like fasting helps me to really cut down on my food intake. cos i never wake up for sahur n i can still survive the whole day without food. besides, whenever i break my fast, i dun eat that much cos i get full very fast. so there u go. im a happy soul.

az was telling me that, that "brother" of mine is back. he msged her saying he missed her n still loved her and all laaa. i mean it is a super de duper long story and i dun feel like publicising it here. except that hes az's xbf and my godbro like during our sec 4 days, which was during my kental days when i still believe in godbrothers cos i was a deprived kid with no brotherly love at home. so duh!

now im like desperate to have a kid brother ever since az showed me syimah's adopted lil sister. awwww! how adorable. i will persuade mum n dad to adopt a baby bro too. yay!

as u can see from paragraph to paragraph that i am not exactly a very systematic person. n i speak at random n i speak of whatever dat comes to my mine abruptly and spontaneously. n from that u can conclude that im quite a fickle minded person n a little naive sometimes especially when i have to handle situations pertaining matters of the heart. hmmm.

despite all those promises of eternity, we parted. but im grateful for dat for i will have no more worries in this mundane life. im not missing you n i am positive cos im much too afraid to lie anymore. i so badly need my prince william right now to protect me and make me happy all day long. i think i have too many unfulfilled dreams which are more likely to be called fantasies that makes me think twice about living thru this reality. i need a miracle to happen and bring me back to reality this instance.

gosh! wad was i blabbering about all this while. pardon my bad linguistic ability and unbombastic vocabulary. i am a simple person with a complicated mind afterall.

i'll end this post off with a simple question to everyone who bumps into this blog.

"if u were to steal one thing from me, what would it be?"


just tag ur answer ya'll. i'll be waiting right here. nyohohohoho!




*but im so afraid to be that happy kid once again.

untittled

and so todays a thursday. must have been wondering wad happen to the let-me-update-everyday routine, right? hehe. the reason was that i am sick of complaining about that wireless connection in my room plus everyone else wanted to use the computer. so go figure!

now, i just came back from little kid's school. she had gymnastic.

my tuesday and wednesday went well. i fast-ed on tuesday, went for a job interview and eemahAFALatiq came over. and on wednesday we went for a karaoke session. it was fun. i'll just let pictures explain my wednesday.


roolATIQrahimahAFAL


karaoke-ing


the lovebirds infested& my camera.



nyohohohohoh! dats all.

currently, im fasting. so i am in no mood to rant so much. i need to sleep. bye!

*so i said a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there

all princessy

wad an auspicious day! that pop princess is getting married. its isra' mi'raj. lalala!

i have started my day very early. i got ready n was brought to ps to watch the lake house. lunched at long john. bought sistic tickets. returned a library book at the orchard library. walked around town. i want an elmo plushie from toys r us. i love the ferrero roche chocolates. lastly, i was sent home. so am i being treated like a princess or wad? hehe. i had a great time. thank you.
:))

tuition was not that bad for once. seriously. kids were being obedient to have finished their work very fast. great!

my night turned out sour. i have no idea why. but i knew i was feeling a little whacked and unhappy. must be bcause deres no dinner. nyenyeh.

i have like a list of songs thats playing in my head over n over again. they are:
1] kenangan terindah-samsons
2] im not missing you-stacie orrico
3] too little too late-jojo
4] me&u-cassie

i shall extract the parts i from some of those songs here.

kenangan terindah
bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

im not missing you
Been through just about everything
that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing
or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go hurt again

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating the fooling around

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever
find the right one for me
Did I leave him
is he right in front of my face
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

too little too late
You take my hand
And you say youve changed
But boy you know your begging
dont fool me
Because to you its just a game

Go find someone else
And letting you go
Im loving myself
You got a problem
But dont come asking me for help


im off to send that little kid n meet ima la.

errm??

i am very sorry for all the linguistic errors that ive made in my previous posts. im not exactly a perfect human being for your information. :))

right now im filled with anxiety. hee. i duno wad will happen. and im praying that something good will. :))

im thanking my sister for that nicely done photoshopped layout. :))

here im blogging at random b4 i visit lala land. :))



*saw all that :)) faces? its a happy world, isnt it? GAH! BYE!

i am nunun

so now u now wad my relatives n closest family members call me right. but obviously u dun have the right to call me dat cos i dun give that permission to you. understand understood. nyenyeh.

lets talk about my friday first. its a fantabulous friday i tell u. a fren of eemah fetch me from tampines interchange and sent us to tampines safra. cos we planned to bolwed. so when atq reached, the queue was still very long. we gave up n planned to catch a movie at the princess Bedok. but to our dismay, there isnt any movie to watch at the particular time we reached there. sp the planned was cancelled. we decided to karaoke. like for the first time. haha so we took a bus to woodlands. yes yes. of all places right. nyenyeh. i duno la. i just follow. when we nearly reached woodlands, we got to know that there is only an available space after 1030pm. we were irritated n annoyed. haha. i in the end decided that we all went to the arcade to vent our anger. best kan. i love playing with the pinball machine.

all the thoughts of reaching home early dat day was crapshit. cos i reached home at 11+. and dad as usual was reprimanding me when i was on my home which i find unfair. cos he never gives me a positive sign. he always thinks negatively like "kau tak takut ke balik malam2 sorang2?" which upsets me very much. instead he should have offered to fetch me home or u noe prays that i reach home or somethings like dat la. haiz. nvm

and on saturday, i had ugame. in which the penyamuns decide to cabot during break. haha. we we were so not in the mood to listen. n the chip was super hungry.

i had my tuition at night for like more than 2 hours. and meet up xbf after dat. we sat n talked. we were wacky. i have missed all that so much. i reminisced. im in confusion again. oh god i need help. i like seriously. sheesh. why does it have to be this way?

and lastly of cos i have a date. n my girlfriends are hiding something from me. ished. nvm. i'll find out abt it sooner. i guess i just have to wait. hmmm.





*being in a state of confusion isnt exactly a great feelings u noe.

im waiting

last night was superbly great. i had my gf's talking session with atiq n eemah from 11 till 3 in the morning. as per nomal we were talking about current issues thats affecting us and wadever underthemoon&thestars topics. haha. we talked till we ran out of ideas to talk about. i love it! this things will so not happen frequently but when it happens i never want it to stop unless of cos anyone of us lose our voices or accidentally dozed of. nyenyeh!

currently im sweating like god noes wad. all because i went to atiqs crib. ya-man. ok enough merepek. the plan was to EXERCISE like in the morning, teach me to make beaded bracelets and some other whatnots la. BUT the plan didnt work out. i reached her place at 11 with my oh-so-kempro outfit. shittos. lucky she lives so close to me. i feel so embarrass wearing that kempro outfit. haha. i went there just to give her the photos shes been bugging me to give n also take the digicam from that blister of mine from her school. today is such a hot day u noe.

here im waiting for miss eemah to sms me to get out of this house to meet her up at bugis. firstly im hungry G. secondly im craving for a movie. haha. so lets go mates!

im waiting.im waiting.im waiting.im waiting.
im waiting.im waiting.im waiting.
im waiting.im waiting.
im waiting.

oh no! i am still waiting. hehe.

XXX
ok like i have promised to list down the things i want to get from my KL trip later. here goes:

1] manymany coloured tops
2] manymany coloured tudungs

so dats all. haha. u expect a longer list i suppose. too bad. im not really in need of more bottoms and other stuffs for now.

XXX

i was exceptionally BORED right now for your info.

JB

gosh! gosh! gosh! i am one angry girl. all because dat wireless connection in my room was giving me problems but not my blister. sheeesh. how can it not work when im using it but not when my sister was using it. haiy. tough luck. on the other hand, how dumb can most singaporeans be to vote someone who isnt worth to be ur idol? BODOH! seriously man. fortunately, hady is still going on to the next round or else im not watching SI anymore. haha.

my parents took leave from work cos dat little kid didnt have school today due to psle students having their orals. so the whole family except that supermodel tak menjadi went to JB. my fren tagged along. so atiq, how do u feel? it was a normal family outing, nothing great actually. the real reason going dere was dat mum wanted to buy some facial items and dad wanted to have a cheap haircut. but we did more than that. i altered most of my oh-so-long pants cos i was short. mum brought home the clothes that she sent for tailoring. n manymnay other things. my fren entertained that little kid like the whole journey dere n back. sanggup eh atiq?? haha.


I need a lover to give me
The kind of love
That will last always
I need somebody uplifting
To take me away

I want a lover who knows me
Who understands how I feel inside
Someone to comfort and hold me
Through the long lonely nights
Till the dawn
Why dont you take me away

Dreamlover come rescue me
Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now
I need you so desperately
Wont you please come around
Cause I wanna share forever with you baby

I dont want another pretender
To disillusion me one more time
Whispering words of forever
Playing with my mind

I need someone to hold on to
The kind of love that wont fly away
I just want someone to belong to
Everyday Of my life always
So come and take me away

-dreamlover; mariah carey.

dun u find the song nice n captivating? im loving it eversince mum listened to it on youtube this morning. im thanking mum for this. life is indeed wonderful for now. its great being stress-free for a while. k best. lalalalalala~.

so now i'll be working on monday, tuesday, wednesday and saturday from 7pm to 9pm. this will go on till the P6's finish their PSLE and I start school again. i cant wait for dat though.


*my next post will be on a list of things im gonna buy on my trip to KL with atiq n her mom. 3rd sept babe!

shoppaholic

I am feeling rather annoyed with the wireless connection in my room. Like of all days to die on me it decided to do that last night when I was practically feeling hype. Irritating.

i so hate my computer. cos dad was meddling with it n i cant seem to open websites/webpages containing activeX control, wadevernots laa. why does my laptop's connection had to die on me last night. geeez. annoying.

I had a great time like the whole day on Wednesday. Firstly, I had a date with atiq to catch my first m18 movie, hard candy. it wasnt exactly gruesome but when u come to think of it n starts to picture about wad was happening dere, u will get wad I mean. I had goosebumps throughout n after the show.

After all that, we decided to windowshop. We got hooked up by the affordable prices of tote bags in esprit that we bought one each. I bought the one in dirty green while atiq bought the one in pale pink. we then walked into Samuel & Kevin shop which made me buy that dirty brown overalls I was eyeing all this while. So as u can see, I did splurge on some items dat day which I was not suppose to.

We got tired of spending dat we decided to meet our LEMpartner and his gf at peninsula. They too went shopping. I think yesterday was the I-am-rich-for-a-while day. Haha. We proceed to the esplanades rooftop and took manymany pictures of which I cant seem to upload cos photobucket was playing around with my feelings in resizing my photos that they look utterly small. but i'll try.





dats some of them laa. i was tired of photoshopping n resizing the rest.

Dat woman had spoilt my already so happy mood when she called me asking where I was when I was suppose to be teaching. Which I dun recall her saying that Wednesday was a teaching day. Obviously I was pissed. But I ignored cos I cant possibly be a superwoman to fly dere plus the bus journey dere will probably take up all the time I need to teach. Thus I apologized. Besides, I wasnt in the wrong cos I didnt noe about it in the first place.


I dun need someone who worships the ground that I walk/step on, all I need is a simple being to make me smile all day long. So hows dat for a change?

like always

as usual, another day, another entry kinda thing. i wanted to blogged in the day but i just couldnt think of wad to say then. i duno wad to rant about now either. but i'll just make an effort to post a merepek post for the day just to make sure i update frquently like i said previously.

i actually wasted my day like dat. i did send that little kid to school in the mid afternoon. den i laze ard the house to n fro the telly n the comp. haha. no wonder my weight keeps increasing like crazy. gah! like wadever. i'll do wad i like.

and i did some stupid things like this one here.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.1
Mind:	3.5
Body:	7.7
Spirit:	3.3
Friends/Family:	2.1
Love:	2.1
Finance:	3.4
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

i had to teach just now from 7 to 9. a new student just clicked with me like all of a sudden. haha. she was practically asking me on how to do all the maths question. she even asked me to help her with her math homework which she didnt get to do cos she didnt finish her tuition work. come to think of it, it was scary. do i look approachable?? errm mebbe i do, who noes? cos i dun.

i have like a playlists of songs in my mind which refuse leave.
1]im with u-avril lavigne
2]if im not the one-daniel beddingfield
3]kenangan terindah-samsons
4]semusim-marcell
5]fix you-coldplay

dats a few to put. emoing is not exactly healthy but i just cant help it. i wanna cry so bad. really bad.

I go downstairs trembling
We are the
we are the monsters of the night
I tried so hard to pray them all away
But its not working tonight

Im sinking down upon dirty ground
My heart has stopped inside of me
And you break my legs to hold me to you
Sorrow dreams into my head

Quiet falling all around me
Fall onto my knees before you
Break the tie that binds me to this
Fall away from fear

Falling Im falling
Cant you hear me calling
Rolling Im rolling
Catch my hand and hold me
Hold me
Hold me

eisley-sleepy head

dats all for today folks. i need to catch some sleep ya'll.

shes my blister.

ok by now everyone will noe dat i have 274564900364816194759068 free days since holidays had commenced. i love exaggerating. thus i'll have all the time in the world to blog. with all the free time not knowing wad to do with this life besides tutoring, which is so not categorised as a job, i will probably flood my blog with nonsense posts just to fill in my time with random pictures and thoughts of the day.

other than that, i will use up my time doing noble jobs such as sending dat little kid to school or cleaning up the house when i feel like it. not to mention wasting money on things dat i love doing like playing pool, the arcades, eating ice cream n going perfectly anywhere just to chill. how i love bus consessions, dont you?

i will do wadever to make myself happy n end all these days with a smile.

so eemah, thank you for a very filling lunch, a great time at the arcade, scrummilicious icecream & a new ride home. i love u babe.


Everything is effed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I cant turn to you when it all falls apart
-the veronicas; when it falls apart.



cosurepathetic&datsyimgivinguponeverything.
ucannevertellwadimfeelincosurenotme.
sojustSHUTUP. -PMS-

yummilicious pizza

and so this humble person here made pizza. yes yes she did. it is successfully done with the help of the whole family but it does taste a little bland. shes a beginner afterall. a few pictures taken thou for evidence sake. *evil laughs*


the supermodel tak menjadi all hands on making the dough which at first didnt work out.


all the ingredients ive used that includes carrots, capsicum, onion, tomatoPASTE, buttonMUSHROOMS, mincedMEAT & loads of cheese.


the small kid's creation with buttonMUSHROOMS & manymanyCHEEEEESE.


the big kid's creation. LOLs.


all cooked plus


all eaten. hehehe.


if u find it appetizing, make urself la. it doesnt hurt a bit. cos im not ur slave to be making pizzas for you. ok a well cooked meal for today. yahoo! im a gaybeing.

i recall

I had a recollection of memories of

1] those times u kissed my forehead to show that u care
2] those times u help to dry my feet when it rained terribly
3] those times u lock ur hands in mine
4] those times u thought I didnt love you
5] those times u tried so hard to make me love you
6] those times u stared at me when Im DEEP in smthg else
7] those times we quarrel and let our egoisticSELF control us
8] those times we sit & talk when we have nothing else to do
9] those times we sang to each other just to pass time
10] those times we acted like kids when we shouldnt
11] those times we tried so hard to compromise
12] those times we make many unkept promises
13] those times I tried my best to understand u
14] those times I made u angry
15] those times I act as if I dun care when I do
16] those times I pretend to not love u when I did
17] those times I look forward to meet u
18] those times I dress up just for u
19] those times people think we are demented
20] those times people think we are not

Hey mister, u r missed. Apparently, i have not forgotten. and never will. cos these fond memories refuse to go away. as it loves to linger in this mind of mine. im trying hard to forget. trying very hard.


Cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Isnt anyone trying to find me
Wont somebody come take me home

Its a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
But I (Im with you)

-avril

weak heart

ok i shall be honest here. truthfully, i do have a rather weak heart. literally la. i dun exactly have a weak heart kind of illness but a weak heart in a sensitive way.

the fact is, i gave in. i have decided why not. i mean i have missed teaching so much that i cant even describe how much i have missed it. teaching is such a noble job. haha. blablabla. mum n dad were pressuring me by saying that i didnt missed teaching instead i missed the money. how irritating when ur parents dun believe in you.

personally i dun understand why dat kid can do is work when im beside him but when im not, his mum will call complaining about all his mistakes. how sad to think dat when i leave his mind will switch off for math. very very sad.

here im still waiting for those photos dat penyamun LEM promises to send to me.ugh. nvm. i shall continue studying for my supply chain. YAY! tomorrow will be the last paper and holidays will commence. im loving it.

other than that i have a confirm job awaiting for me. and i shall find another one to fill in my afternoon. then i will be one busy and rich girl. *evil laughs*



i should stop dreaming.

like rawr

and so the merlion roars. heeeez. happy national day!

its been quite mundane and dull through out the whole day. seriously. apparently the oh-so-boring family decides to stay at home, god-knows wad for. so amyways, ive been a good girl. i actually had the mood to clean up certain messes in my room and was very satisfied with my work. so nowmy room looks a little tidy. GREAT!

honestly, now i know how much coffee doesnt work on me into giving me that extra boost of energy to stay alive n kicking. and because of that my concentration span got worst. i only manage to read n understand part of my marketing for like 5 to 10 minutes, den im off to somewhere else for i was so restless. i so dunno wads wrong with me.

i had a great chat with eemah the other night about everything underthemoon&stars. we updated ourselves on our current lives. we confide in each other about the problems we are facing in which i find very useful. we were also talking about our future like taking a step into being good muslimahs cos we know we are not perfect human beings. HEY BABE! wetkisses&sloppyhugs for you from me kays.

adding to that, i was thinking about why people contradict themselves. the irony of being good and bad at the same time never fails to confuse me most of the time. wad should u do when a fren decides to be that way. wad must u do to make this fren of urs to open up and see the world. for instance when at first they act so nicely and humble towards u but after a while theyve forgotten about that and became someone u dun want them to be. wad would u do if that fren of urs start boasting about something really sensitive but after that ignored about that sensitive issue that they boasted about. they pretend people never notice such behaviour in them. but obviously, they are wrong and cannot run away from the fact that people like me are so prone such things. i am sad to see and hear such things happening to them. like why on earth them?

anyway to this particular fren, i plead u to stop all this nonsense. you told us u wanted to be a good human, a humble person, a loyal child to ur parents. but when u do all this, remember that frens like us care for you and wouldnt want u to destroy ur life just like that. we as ur frens never wanted u to be like this. because the person we knew back then isnt the person we all know now. its like as if we are living in 2 separate worlds which should never happen in frenship. so please, i guess u know wad to do cos ure big enough to think. i just want to live in peace and harmony like how i used to. i never want anything to change. never. so before a fight occurs, this must stop.



alright then. im off to lala land, wanna join me?

fireworks

Like they say "shit happens to good people". A friend was so careless to leave behind his 50 dollar note at the ATM. I pity him.

The day started off with a very killing paper that I so dun wan to talk about. Had lunch at temasek poly plus getting to noe new frens dere who are frens of eemah. They are a funny n cute bunch of people. After that, accompanied that cousin of mine to her grandmas house for tutoring.

It was a mixture of boredom, frustration, tiredness and happiness for the whole day.

I so hate it when all blames are put on me when im not the one doing all the wrong. Like wad is wrong with the world. its sad to see people not thinking about the others feelings just for the benefit of their own. Its a pity that people never like to compromise instead they will just do anything for themselves.

Fireworks gazing was magnificent. Apart from being the small one among a humongous crowd, I manage to have a clear view of the spectacular designs of those fireworks. Other than that, I get to meet those people I had not met for such a long time. to you all, thank you for a marvelous night.

I so badly wished upon those fireworks that u were right there to embrace me for I was afraid I might lose grip of myself.

I was a little surprise that I manage to not feel that much pain whilst wearing high-heeled shoes. I was able to walk all over the place with it. That was a great achievement ive made.

Above all, I like to wish Singapore a prosperous 41 st bdae from the bottom of my broken heart.

tommorow will be a better day.


Lots of sloppykisses to yall.

like so bored can

yayness! tommorrow will be national day. a holiday. no papers. im elated. tommorrow will also be a lets-all-wear-red day. so everyone everywhere lets all wear red. geez. lame.

ok actually n truthfully im exceptionally bored. i am here at my aunts place accompanying eemah for her tuition. so u can imagine how bored i am here. nyenyeh but im having some quality time of my own.

like now, i wish to rant a few things dats been bothering me. so lets grumble. oops i mean rumble.

first n foremost, the exams have been one hell of a ride with 2 more papers to go. im left with marketing management and supply chain. in which i have a little confidence in. hee.

next, the stress ive been facing. like why on earth am i the first daughter when i dun get that kind of treatment at times.

next, i cant seem to please people around me mainly frens.



i dun wan to talk about all this already la. i'll leave it that way.

persevere

so today's the day for fireworks gazing. nyenyeh. i cant wait.

truthfully, yesterdays paper was a little screwed up. for the fact that i actually memorized most of it, my mind went blank when i looked at the exam paper. i guess wads done cant be undone. pathetic.

i am so gonna be screwed for today's essential for marketing n accounting [EFMA] module. i didnt practice enough. i didnt memorize well. i didnt make time for it. gaush.

friendship can lead to love, but it doesnt usually work the other way around.

so now she wants me back. she needs me back. like helo, i am so not into tutoring already can. and when the kids fail, i as their tutor will get the blame. wad a sickening job can. i gave in when u pleaded me with that sad tone of urs just to tutor ur son. n the next day u called in ur happy mood, just to ask me to come back to tutor the rest? this is injustice. n yes i cant fight for my rights instead i MUST listen to ur tak-masok-akal ramblings. in which i have to practically give in and agree to all ur ssquabblings.

this is like undue influence going on around here. like i have to reluctantly agree to a contract which i dun ever wish to enter. damn it.

and so this leaves to an unfinished end cos its going nowhere far.




i'll leave for now.

i followed my heart

Helo muttons.

I want to make a request to whoever reads this humble persons posts all this while n doesnt understand the meaning behind some of it, to please ASK. Dat is if u actually care about this humble person here. But if u still dun understand, refuse to ask, then this humble person asks for forgiveness for not being able to make u understand.

OMG! wad was I crapping about.

Currently I am in my room trying very hard to memorize every single law I can find in my business law lecture notes. I did study in the afternoon with the CHIP at National Library. I am very satisfied to have answered 2 past year papers with the aid of the the notes of cos but am a little bit worried that I have forgotten all the laws which I am suppose to remember by hard at this very moment.

I am very elated that I have used my day wisely today. I have flipped thru my business law notes for over 3 hours today. So if I cant do tomorrow’s paper I am so so gonna cry.

An online fren had tagged me. So as usual I love doing such stuffs. So here goes.

1. Ever been given a ring?
once but had to return it back

2. Longest relationship?
the recent one. Lets see. 5 months plus?

3. Last gift you received?
sparkling green bracelet for my bdae

4. Last sport you played?
captains ball in sec sch

5. Things you spend a lot of money on?
dat is so gotta be F.O.O.D

6. Three things you ate last?
carrot cake at Raffles hospital banquet

7. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?`
gotta be looks n personality (hey im being honest!)

8 .One favorite song?
you dun miss ur water (till the well runs dry) by craig david

9. Where do you live?
Serangoon North

10. Last relationship? `
ended on 210406

11. Cell phone service provider?
dad’s company Singtel

12. Favorite mall store?
marina sq?

13. Longest job held?
2 years plus as a tutor.

14. Do you own a pair of dice?
not that I remember

15. Do you prank call people?
I dun have time

16. Last person who text messaged you?
Jas.

17. Last time you attended church?
im a passionate muslim for ur info

18. Favorite fast food restaurant?
MacD

19. Last incoming call?
Dad

20. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
Pizza Hut

21. Can you cook?
a little i suppose

22. What car do you drive?
I dun own a license yet

23. Last time you cried?
like recently after being too stress out

24. Most hated food?
non halal ones definitely (no offence here. really sorry.)

25. Thing you like most about yourself?
these adoring eyes (WTH??!!)

26. Things you hate most about yourself?
getting unappreciated

27. Last time you had an argument?
cant remember

28. Favorite Movie?
I watch all kinds of movie

29. Name all the races of the people that youve been with?
errm?? I dun get this qn seriously.

30. Last kiss?
I duno

31. Last movie rented?
not even once

32. Favorite perfume?
Miracle

33. What are you thinking at the moment?
about how to ace business law exam tmr

34. Who do you wish to meet right now?
Id like to be alone for now

35. Who do you wish to do this entry?
those random ppl who came across this blog n duno wad to update in theirs.


I AM SO BORED CAN. thank you nurul for tagging.

mebbe its never to become, for I am not the one

hey its not my fault. Things just had to happen dat way.

happy moments

yayness! my new bed is predicted to reach home at 10 in the morning. which is like about 10 minutes from this point of time. i cant wait. this will be great. no more of that "dung dung chang" bed. haha. lalalala.

ok for everyone's information. i am allergic to dust n dirt. haha. so if i were to clean up my room full of dust with the broom n the vacuum, i'll sneeze immediately. ok now u can picture me messing up the place with tissues lying everywhere. it becomes irritating when u have such a good heart to do something good but get sick in the end. dont u think so?


Malam Ini Kita Semua Menangis
Ahadiat Akashah & Norerny Othman

when we shared the laughter
there's twice the fun
when we shared the success
we surpass wad we've done
when we share problems
there's half the pain
when we share tears
a rainbow follows rain
when we share dreams
they become more real
when we share secrets
its our hearts we reveal

if we share a smile
then our love shows
if we share a hug
then our love grows
if we share with someone
on whom we depend
that person becomes
a family or a fren
and wad draws us closer
and makes us all care
is not wad we have
but the things that we share

love each other
love you forever

i was dreaming of you.

business finance

ok the paper just now was a gone case. dun ask me about it. never ask me about it. i was practically stoning while doing it. it was killing me softly inside cos i noe i cant do it. nothing seems to come out of this freaking mind. n i almost gave up. like wth. so much for not wanting to sit for a supp paper. gaush.

this is all because of all the stress ive been facing lately. like why of all time during the exams season right. like why of all people me right. why at this moment? why?? if its not because of all that i wouldnt be feeling this way n wouldnt be doing so bad for that paper. ugh. forget about that damn paper.

so fahms decided to have lunch at lucky plaza's pizza hut. haha of all places. well i just needed to do something to get that damn paper off my mind. thus any place for lunch will do at that time.

n lastly im on the process of making a new blog layout. yay!

like wad in this bloody world of marijuana will u do if i were to say i love you. ok first thing u should is to wipe off that stupid smile off ur face. the second thing is that it is so so not gonna happen. haha. dream on.

OMG im speaking as if im some retard. dead serious. i dun wan to be crazy so soon. oh help.

demure

and so i did went out yesterday with dear eemah. we met at bedok to catch the movie "click". ok y of all places bedok right? first thing is that i have a straight bus from home and eemah has a straight bus from her school dere. second thing is that the price of the ticket there is cheap. a mere 5 dolars. the air con was great. u can eat wadever u like. except that the quality of the movie is a little too low. but i dun care as long as i get to watch the movie. yayness.

the "click" movie is one hell of a hilarious movie. we were laughing nonstop definitely. there were also parts of the story which touched our hearts n made eemah all teary. indeed it was a little crappish with the universal remote control n all. but alas, we had a great rollercoaster of emotions going on in dere. im not gonna promote the movie here n force everyone to watch cos im not paid to do so. thus its up to u guys n girls to decide.

so on my way home, i had a hard time sitting still in this particular SMRT bus which i dun wish to state the number. firstly i had this shitty n bad feeling. secondly, there were 3 little cockroaches right beside me. like WTF! so wan to noe wad i actually did? in the end i decided to give up my seat to someone who needs it. haha. okae dat was in a courteous way to put it. i actually stood up like ard 10 bustops before mine. so i felt kinda embarrass. i alighted at farid's place just to take another bus for i was afraid people might think im crazy for standing after getting a seat. so yes i took another bus home instead.

my parents went out on a date last night. i shant say where cos i myself dun even noe where dad brought mum to. like wadever.

again i know u might think im not acting like myself lately. but i dun care. cos im happy this way. so much freedom. no more worries. but i do care. im lost. i dun noe wad to do now. n because of this i cried again n again. till i cant cry no more. i dun need u to care. i dun need self pity.




i was thinking of you. positive.



ps: i so badly want that universal remote control so i could turn back time whenever i felt like it.

forget it

i just need a kind soul to study with.

ugh. too much to ask for.

argh. nevermind.

shoo go away.

just felt like bloggin

the celebration for their anniversary last night was fairly a normal celebration. we went to breeks to have dinner and several conversation n dats dat. nothing much happen. we treated it as if it were another family gathering for dinner. nyenyeh. we do have photos but im far too lazy to resize n post it here. so be it. this post will just be purely filled with words. no more photos for now. hee.

actually i woke up early today which was about 730am cos i slept preeeeeety early last night which was about 11 plus. i felt totally sleepy after watching CSI n halfway thru criminal mind i doze off. haha. so yes i woke up early today n went back to sleep again. WHY WHY WHY did i get back to sleep after waking up so early????? because this girl here didnt noe wad to do n felt a little lost in her own room thus decided to go back to dreamland. haha .

n yes i juz woke up yet again. at ard now. which somehow i still dunno wad to do. but thinking about it, i do have a few things to do in mind.

they are:
1- study for business finance exam which is this friday.
2- clear the mess in my room
3- study for other papers which are on the following week (mon, tue, thu, fri)
4- pray hard that i'll survive this whole exam process

okae. those are the main things i have to do. shittos. some people actually promised to study when its study break. but they have disappear. haiz. i shall shut up.

i dunno y people say ive been changing. ok in which aspect have i been changing? can u like specify? size? behaviour? WHAT? hmmm. ok mebbe i wasnt being myself these few days. mebbe its the time of the month. but it isnt yet. haiz. how am i suppose to please all those human beings out there when i dun even get the treatment that i want. damn living is tough.


gosh i am so not in a good mood right now.


*n f*ck those people whose been adding me in msn who decided not to reveal their name. to he*l with being anonymous.

19 years together.

i am so delighted to announce that today marks the 19th year my parents lived as a happily married couple.

HAPPY 19th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY MUM AND DAD!!



thank you for the three wonderful daughters u have mould to be the best. thank you for all the attention, love n care u have given throughout these years. THANK YOU!

LOVE,
your eldest daughter,
Nurul Su'aidah.

i dunno wad else to say

sometimes i duno wad happen to the world. wad happen to the people around me. sometimes i feel rather selfish towards the society as well as myself. i act like i own everything in the world when i dun. i steal every attention given to other beings for my own self. i get very self centered when i have all the attention towards me n the thought of other well beings around me slip off my mind. but of all the things that slip off this mind, i never forget. i need people in my life to refresh those memories that tend to slip off. so here i apologise for my unforgivable mistake.


i need someone to calm me down n sing me this song. genuinely.

Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best but you dont succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love some one but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you





you rape my feelings and left me astray.
im not loving you no more. no more love.